Prayers and Meditations
(1995-1999)
A Poem for Jesus:
Feb., 1998
All that is Yours is mine–
Therefore, I give you my mind,
And I
take Your mind to think with
I give you my eyes,
And I
take Your eyes to see with
I give you my mouth,
And I
take Your mouth to speak with
I give you my ears,
And I
take Your ears to listen with,
I give you my hands,
And I
take Your hands to work with,
I give you my feet,
And I
take Your feet to walk with,
I give you my heart,
And I
take Your Heart to love with!
Mon. Jan 2, 1995
Meditation on the Finding of Jesus in the Temple:
After this exchange of hearts, we find within the temples
of our hearts the pure Hearts of Our Holy Mother and Our Lord. This is where we find Jesus & Mary united
with us and where the Triumph of Her Heart will begin.**
**Friday, Feb. 7, 2003, Shrine of the Most Blessed Sacrament: (added on 3/6/09)
After receiving Holy Communion; I saw within my soul Jesus
sitting upon my heart as if on a throne; His back towards me, looking out, with
something like a staff in His right hand.
He spoke to me saying, “It is from
here I will reign!” Jesus then
turned into a little child, but remained sitting upon my heart with the staff
remaining in His Hand. Jesus then spoke
again saying, “I will reign in those who love Me.”
As I was meditating on a letter Sr. Maureen wrote me, it
came to me that the same way the Church is being pulled apart today, Jesus’
limbs were pulled apart as they nailed Him to the Cross. As this thought came to me, Jesus spoke to
me saying, “You will suffer with Me!”
Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus:
Sat., Feb. 4, 1995
As Our Lady presented the Infant Jesus to God the Father
in the Temple, She also presents Him to us each day at the Mass (in the
Temple), and also presents each of us to God the Father as She presented Jesus
to Him. As Simeon and Anna knew that
this Infant was the son of God, we also must see Him in the Eucharist with the
same faith as they did. We must believe
in His true Presence. Jesus has told me
that the “abomination will soon be set up
in the temple” and that we must continue to walk in faith – “to be His Light” in the darkness surrounding
us. I have complained to Him to open the
hearts of all the people that they may return to Him, and He has told me many
times that He “will not impose on their
will.” He cannot enter the hearts of
so many as they are hardened and filled with pride – that many of them will be
lost. We are asked to continue to pray
for them during this time of Mercy that their hearts may open. This is where the “abomination” begins – in the
heart”, but will “soon be set up
in the temple”. As Our Lady
presented Jesus, She by tradition, was to be purified according to the Law
(though She was already pure!) – the Church must also be purified!
March 6, 1995, Adoration Chapel:
When you were lost, I found you,
When you were hungry, I fed you,
When you were thirsty, I gave you a drink,
Do for Me what I have done for you.
June 12, 1995, Adoration Chapel:
While meditating on the Resurrection, I thought about why
the Apostles did not recognize Our Lord When they saw Him. He told me they did not recognize Him because
they were seeing with their
“human eyes”
and not with the “eyes of their
souls.” Then He said that I was like
them – I do not believe that He is speaking to me – that I should “listen with the ears of my soul.”
Meditation, sometime the beginning of 1996:
Our Lord calls out to His Father, “My God, My God, why
have You forsaken Me?” The Light from
the Father diminishes within Him and Heaven seems to no longer hear Him. He sees before Him the souls of all those who
would abandon Him and the extinguished lights of all those who would be lost
forever – being deprived of the ones He could not save – His greatest
torment. How many would be lost? Did He feel that He suffered in vain? He sees His Churches and chapels empty – no
one is there to console His great sorrow.
He sees those who abandon His Church – His Mystical Body – abandoned by
so many. Even His apostles have abandoned
Him. He is alone with only His Mother
to comfort Him. In sorrow, He cries out,
“I thirst!” – thirsting for the souls that He is in agony for, thirsting for
the souls He knows He is to die for. He
is truly the “spurned one”. He continues
today to pour out His Mercy for those who are lost, that they might repent and
be saved. He feels as much abandoned
today as He did when He hung upon the Cross.
He cries out to the Father for us….(unfinished)
After the sacrifice came the Resurrection – after the
sacrifice of the Mass, when we receive Jesus in the Eucharist, our hearts
become the tomb where He rests and He is resurrected in us. I was lead to understand that as His Holy
Face was imprinted on the shroud, His Divine Features are also imprinted upon
our hearts. In the promises to those
devoted to His Holy Face, Our Lord has said, “They will, as the pious Veronica, wipe my Adorable Face outraged by
sin, and I will imprint My Divine Features in the souls.”
Adoration Chapel, Oct. 17, 1996, from Our Lord:
When you are filled
with joy – I Am
When you are filled
with sorrow – I Am
When you are filled
with peace – I Am
When you are filled
with Love – I Am
I Am is with you
Meditation of the Presentation, Oct. 21, 1996:
During the Mass, I become a Bethlehem. The cave where Jesus is to be born is inside
my heart. I try to prepare a place fit
for Him to be born, but it is cold and dark inside, and yet, He chooses to be
born here.
Upon His arrival, my cave becomes all Light and the
darkness and cold within disappear.
Mother Mary wraps Him tightly in my heart as She wrapped Him in
swaddling clothes. The Lord is now with
Me! I go to bring Him to others. It is time to present Him to God the Father;
I bring Him within me to the temple (the Mass) to present Him to the
Father. He leaves my heart as He leaves
the arms of Our Mother to be placed in the arms of Simeon (the Priest). Simeon takes Him into his arms and blesses
God. (My eyes have seen your salvation
which you prepared in sight of all the peoples.” My eyes look at Jesus in the Eucharist – our
salvation – prepared in sight of all the people at the Mass. Then Jesus is given back to me as Simeon
handed Him back to Mary. This “sign that
will be contradicted” is now with me. As
I carry Him with me, I know that I too become a sign of contradiction.
Words of Love, because He first loved me, Nov., 1996:
My soul proclaims your greatness, O Lord,
You have breathed life into my famished soul.
You alone meet the hunger which only grace can fill,
The thirst which only You can quench.
Your promises are my hope,
Your Words, the joy of my heart.
Through the sword flowed the Living Water
that flowed through this desert reviving it,
bringing life once again to the parched land.
A whisper heard within my heart,
a bright light which questioned me.
I answered, “Yes”, but did not understand.
You called me to Yourself.
With hands outstretched you beckoned me.
You watered your flower in need of nourishment.
The rays poured out from Your Heart,
pierced for love of me.
You lifted up my soul in your powerful arms,
and held me close to You,
Filling my heart with an unknown love,
leaving your imprint upon my soul.
My spirit rejoices in You, my Savior.
My soul is filled with Your Light.
April 3, 1997:
Sometimes my heart is so filled with joy – I think it may
burst;
Sometimes my heart is so filled with sorrow – I think I
may die;
Sometimes I feel nothing, neither joy nor sorrow - these are the worst times;
Oh that I would feel something! I welcome even sorrow or pain instead of
emptiness.
Meditation: “…and
She laid him in a manger because there was no room for them at the Inn” Luke
2:7
Mid-1997:
I pray to become empty – for my heart to become an empty
space as the cave in which Jesus was born, and not to be full, as the Inn which
had no room. I pray to you my Mother, to
place Jesus in my heart as you placed Him in the manger so that His glorious
Light will inflame my poor heart, burning away all the impurities and all that
which is not of God, filling the darkness of my soul with His Light. May all be drawn to His Light as the
Shepherd’s were drawn to the cave of His birth.
My Jesus, I pray that you will rest here in my heart where I will warm
you with the warmth of Your very Love and form within me the empty space in
which you will place the Celestial Gift of the Divine Will. Amen
Sat., July 5, 1997, Adoration:
I was meditating on the Finding of Jesus in the Temple
and the suffering of Mother Mary as She searched for three days for Her Jesus,
and I thought about myself when I sometimes do not feel His presence. How miserable I become!~ At one point during the Mass, I again thought
about Our Lady and St. Joseph going in search of Jesus, and He said to me, “I did not leave them!” I received light
to understand that Mary and Joseph brought Jesus to the Temple, but He did not
go off leaving them – it was they who left Him.
I knew that He was making me understand that it is never He who leaves
us, but us who leave Him. And where is
it that we will find Him? - in the
Temple (the Church) and in the Temple of our hearts where He dwells.”
A few days after this, I picked up the Book of Heaven,
Vol. 17, pg. 73, and read, “I do not leave you – no, no. This is an accusation you make against your
Jesus. I never leave anyone! The creatures withdraw from Me, not I from
them. Rather, I go behind them and next
to them.”
April, 1998, Meditation on the Resurrection:
I thought about Jesus’ words to Mary Magdalene, “Do not touch Me for I have not yet ascended
to My Father.” How holy and pure we
must be before we touch our dear Lord.
How many are the impure hands that touch Him each day when receiving Him
in the Eucharist! How many the impure
hearts into which He descends each day!
Aug., 1998, Meditation on the Presentation:
I saw Anna as representing all the faithful, “and
coming forward at that very time, she gave thanks to God…” (Luke 2:38) In faith, we come forward to
receive Our Lord in the Holy Eucharist, and we give thanks to God for a gift so
great! We go out from the “Temple” to
speak of Jesus to all who will listen, “…and
spoke about the child to all who were awaiting the redemption of Jerusalem.”
I was thinking about John the Apostle as he rested his
head upon the Heart of Our dear Lord:
John, what did you feel? What did
you hear? Did you hear His Heart
speaking to yours? Were you engulfed in
the flames of love bursting from His adorable Heart? What did you say to Him? Oh John, how I desire to rest my head upon
the heart of my Jesus once again. But He
is as gone for me. I no longer feel Him
near me as I once did. Have I not done
His Will? He has given me so many graces. Have I used them as I should have? Jesus, as you take your Light from me, I see
myself as You see me, and I am sick at what I see! I feel weighed down by sin, covered with
filth and mud – yet my soul still clings to You. I see myself grabbing on to the hem of Your
robe and I will never let go. I will
continue to cling to You, my sweet Jesus, with all my strength.
During the Mass this day, I was praying that You would
remember me for I feel so abandoned and alone.
I said to You, Jesus my heart, am
I being detached from You? , and I heard very softly within my heart, No, no my Lynne. You are a part of My Heart. Would I tear out part of My Heart and throw
it away?”
True fasting, Aug., 1998:
I now understand
what “true fasting is: it is not the
fasting on bread and water, although this is where we begin; it is the denying
of self – fasting from what we desire for what God desires. This does not only relate to food, but to
everything. We must discern what God’s
desires are and what are our own. It is
only in this way that we may truly be emptied of self so that God may fill
us. Our Lady has taught us, as children,
to fast on bread and water to allow us to understand this ultimate truth.
Sometime the end of 1998:
I wait to hear once again the sound of Your Voice
whispering within my soul,
I wait to see once again your beautiful face within my
soul,
Oh, how I long for you May God!
I feel as if the Holy Spirit has abandoned me,
And yet, I know you are before me as spectator, watching
my every move,
listening to my every word.
Oh, when will you return to me My Divine Master?
You are everything to me, and how can I live without You?
It is a void you are making in my soul which you will
fill with Yourself –
Praise you My God – my breath, my life, my all!
Dec. 29, 1998:
Before Mass during prayer, I understood that I had
nothing to offer God, that everything comes only from Him – I could not even
love Him as I should, and a most beautiful prayer came to me something like
this, “I love you my God, but I do not
love you as you love me, therefore, I take the love with which you love me and
make it my own so that I may offer you this same love with which you have loved
me.” Immediately I heard within my
heart, “This is what will make us one!”
Beginning of 1999:
Consider this regarding women who want to be
Priests: I thought about the fourth
joyful mystery of the Rosary, the Presenting of Jesus – Our Lady offered Her
Son to the Father, not with her hands,
but through the hands of Simeon the Priest!
Even the Mother of God did not offer Him through her own hands – if
God wanted women to be Priests, certainly it would have been His will to be
offered through the hands of The Immaculate One, and not through Simeon’s!
I do not have any words to explain this, but in my feeble
way I will attempt:
Sometimes after receiving Holy Communion (offered in the
Divine Will), I seem to feel nothing within me – it is as though I no longer
exist. I felt this even more today and
wondered why this would be. As soon as
this thought came to my mind, I was given Light to understand that as Jesus
gave everything of Himself, I, in being united to Him, also must give
everything of myself until there is nothing left of me – as the Host is broken
and consumed until there is nothing left – so must I be.
Thurs., July 8, 1999:
Before Mass, I was inspired to pray for everyone to
“listen with the ears of their souls and see with the eyes of their
souls.” Just after receiving Holy
Communion, I understood that the Eucharistic Reign of Christ will be within our
souls (we will see Him with the eyes of our souls), that this is NOT an
exterior reign; we will become as living Hosts.
I understood so much but it is impossible for me to explain in
words. Immediately after this, I heard
clearly within me, “And you will see Me as I Am!”
Prayer, July, 1999:
Oh my Jesus, please remove from me all that keeps me from
living in your Holy Divine Will. If
there is anything of which I am unaware of that keeps me outside of Your Will,
make it known to me that I may repent of it so as to live firmly in Your
Will. I ask you to make me into that
image you had of me when I was first in Your Thoughts, and do not allow me to
distort that image. May I grow ever more
in Your Light as to form a Heaven for you on earth and to be united with you
forever for all Eternity. Amen
A meditation on the prophecy of Simeon:
Heavenly Mother, I enter into Your sorrow at the prophecy
of Simeon when you presented with St. Joseph the child Jesus in the
Temple. The joy you felt upon presenting
Jesus to the Father was taken away by the words spoken by Simeon, “…and your heart will be pierced also…(Luke
2:34) Oh, my sorrowful Mother, in
these words was the knowledge given to you how many would reject your Motherly
embrace and in rejecting you, would also be rejecting your Jesus. How many souls were contained in your Hearts
that would reject the many Graces that you wanted to offer them. My sweet Mother, to make reparation to you
for all the rejection you suffered upon seeing those souls that would not only
reject your Jesus, but would also reject you, I bring you the love of all the
faithful throughout the ages. I bring
you the love of Jesus, your Son; of the Holy Spirit, your spouse; and Our
Heavenly Father, to comfort and console you in this great sorrow. I will remain always with you upon your lap
begging together with you that the Kingdom come on earth, as it is in Heaven.
Says “Bring to Me your little child.
Sit him down before me please,
And I will grant him all his needs.”
Show Me that you truly care.
I only ask a few moments of your time,
I will give you all I have, because you are mine.”
I will never abandon you – I will be with you until the
end.
You are my children, this you should know.
I will wait ‘til you come, for I love you so!”
Sometime Feb, 1996:
After a meditation class (we were meditating on being
with Jesus at the Jordan), Sr. Maureen asked me why I didn’t put Jesus’ sandals
on my feet when we were meditating.
After I spoke with her, I knew that I had to do this, and immediately I
felt fear within me – not even knowing why.
I prayed to Our Lady to take away all my fears and to offer them to
Jesus, asking for her help in what I was about to do.
“Jesus is sitting
before me. I kneel down at His feet
taking one foot into my hands. I slip
off His sandal and kiss the wound on His foot.
I now take the other foot into my hands and do the same. I stand up and slip both sandals onto my own
feet saying as I do so, “Yes, I will lord, because I love you.” I follow Jesus who now stands up and walks in
front of me, and Mother Mary is on my left walking besides me. We walk only a few steps and Jesus turns
around facing me. He doesn’t say a word,
but I am enlightened and know that the Holy Spirit who will fill me completely,
once I am empty, will do everything – I need do nothing! What is there to fear? I need only get out of His way!” I understood after this that during my
meditation class I was very comfortable being a little girl in the arms of Our
Lord, but I feared having to be like Him
– walking in His sandals!
I belong to Heaven.
In order for me to get to Heaven,
I must spend my time on earth,
Acting as though I belong to Heaven!
Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus in the Temple:
I go together with Mary and Joseph and the Infant Jesus
to the Temple. My eyes cannot go away
from Him who is my life and my all. Mary
presents Him to the Priest, Simeon. I
look at Him in Simeon’s arms and oh, how I wish He were in my arms, but lo – I
am to sinful and wretched to dare touch Him!
I therefore, stare in awe at His beautiful and adorable face and
contemplate with what Love He loves us all.
Oh my sweet Mother, how sorrowful is your heart to hear Simeon say, “and
your heart too will be pierced!” At that
moment you saw how many sins caused your heart and the Divine Heart of Jesus to
be pierced. Forgive me – forgive us all!
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