Prayers and Meditations

Prayers and Meditations

(1995-2015)

A Poem for Jesus:

Feb., 1998

All that is mine is Yours –

All that is Yours is mine–

Therefore, I give you my mind,

               And I take Your mind to think with

I give you my eyes,

               And I take Your eyes to see with

I give you my mouth,

               And I take Your mouth to speak with

I give you my ears,

               And I take Your ears to listen with,

I give you my hands,

               And I take Your hands to work with,

I give you my feet,          

               And I take Your feet to walk with,

I give you my heart,

               And I take Your Heart to love with!

Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus:

 Mon. Jan 2, 1995

As Our Holy Mother presented Jesus in the Temple, She present to us Her Heart united to the Heart of Her Son, asking for our hearts in exchange, that  She might present them to God the Father.  We must offer our hearts to Them for this spiritual exchange of hearts.

Meditation on the Finding of Jesus in the Temple:

After this exchange of hearts, we find within the temples of our hearts the pure Hearts of Our Holy Mother and Our Lord.  This is where we find Jesus & Mary united with us and where the Triumph of Her Heart will begin.**
**Friday, Feb. 7, 2003, Shrine of the Most Blessed Sacrament:  (added on 3/6/09)

After receiving Holy Communion; I saw within my soul Jesus sitting upon my heart as if on a throne;  His back towards me, looking out, with something like a staff in His right hand.  He spoke to me saying, “It is from here I will reign!”  Jesus then turned into a little child, but remained sitting upon my heart with the staff remaining in His Hand.  Jesus then spoke again saying, “I will reign in those who love Me.”

Meditation, mid-Jan., 1995

As I was meditating on a letter Sr. Maureen wrote me, it came to me that the same way the Church is being pulled apart today,  Jesus’ limbs were pulled apart as they nailed Him to the Cross.   As this thought came to me, Jesus spoke to me saying, “You will suffer with Me!”

Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus:

Sat., Feb. 4, 1995

As Our Lady presented the Infant Jesus to God the Father in the Temple, She also presents Him to us each day at the Mass (in the Temple), and also presents each of us to God the Father as She presented Jesus to Him.  As Simeon and Anna knew that this Infant was the son of God, we also must see Him in the Eucharist with the same faith as they did.  We  must believe in His true Presence.  Jesus has told me that the “abomination will soon be set up in the temple” and that we must continue to walk in faith – “to be His Light” in the darkness surrounding us.  I have complained to Him to open the hearts of all the people that they may return to Him, and He has told me many times that He “will not impose on their will.”  He cannot enter the hearts of so many as they are hardened and filled with pride – that many of them will be lost.  We are asked to continue to pray for them during this time of Mercy that their hearts may open.   This is where the “abomination” begins – in the heart”, but will “soon be set up in the temple”.  Fate Our Lady presented Jesus, she by tradition, was to be purified according to the Law (though She was already pure!) – the Church must also be purified!

March 6, 1995, Adoration Chapel:

When you were lost, I found you,

When you were hungry, I fed you,

When you were thirsty, I gave you a drink,

Do for Me what I have done for you.

June 12, 1995, Adoration Chapel:

While meditating on the Resurrection, I thought about why the Apostles did not recognize Our Lord When they saw Him.  He told me they did not recognize Him because they were seeing with their

“human eyes” and not with the “eyes of their souls.”  Then He said that I was like them – I do not believe that He is speaking to me – that I should “listen with the ears of my soul.”

Meditation, sometime the beginning of 1996:

Our Lord calls out to His Father, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”  The Light from the Father diminishes within Him and Heaven seems to no longer hear Him.  He sees before Him the souls of all those who would abandon Him and the extinguished lights of all those who would be lost forever – being deprived of the ones He could not save – His greatest torment.  How many would be lost?  Did He feel that He suffered in vain?  He sees His Churches and chapels empty – no one is there to console His great sorrow.  He sees those who abandon His Church – His Mystical Body – abandoned by so many.  Even His apostles have abandoned Him.   He is alone with only His Mother to comfort Him.  In sorrow, He cries out, “I thirst!” – thirsting for the souls that He is in agony for, thirsting for the souls He knows He is to die for.  He is truly the “spurned one”.  He continues today to pour out His Mercy for those who are lost, that they might repent and be saved.  He feels as much abandoned today as He did when He hung upon the Cross.  He cries out to the Father for us….(unfinished)

Meditation on the Resurrection, Aug. 10, 1996:

After the sacrifice came the Resurrection – after the sacrifice of the Mass, when we receive Jesus in the Eucharist, our hearts become the tomb where He rests and He is resurrected in us.  I was lead to understand that as His Holy Face was imprinted on the shroud, His Divine Features are also imprinted upon our hearts.  In the promises to those devoted to His Holy Face, Our Lord has said, “They will, as the pious Veronica, wipe my Adorable Face outraged by sin, and I will imprint My Divine Features in the souls.”

Adoration Chapel, Oct. 17, 1996, from Our Lord:

When you are filled with joy – I Am

When you are filled with sorrow – I Am

When you are filled with peace – I Am

When you are filled with Love – I Am

I Am is with you

Meditation of the Presentation, Oct. 21, 1996:

During the Mass, I become a Bethlehem.  The cave where Jesus is to be born is inside my heart.  I try to prepare a place fit for Him to be born, but it is cold and dark inside, and yet, He chooses to be born here.

Upon His arrival, my cave becomes all Light and the darkness and cold within disappear.  Mother Mary wraps Him tightly in my heart as She wrapped Him in swaddling clothes.  The Lord is now with Me!  I go to bring Him to others.  It is time to present Him to God the Father; I bring Him within me to the temple (the Mass) to present Him to the Father.  He leaves my heart as He leaves the arms of Our Mother to e placed in the arms of Simeon (the Priest).  Simeon takes Him into his arms and blesses God.  (My eyes have seen your salvation which you prepared in sight of all the peoples. “  My eyes look at Jesus in the Eucharist – our salvation – prepared in sight of all the people at the Mass.  Then Jesus is given back to me as Simeon handed Him back to Mary.  This “sign that will be contradicted” is now with me.  As I carry Him with me, I know that I too become a sign of contradiction.

Words of Love, because He first loved me, Nov., 1996:

My soul proclaims your greatness, O Lord,

You have breathed life into my famished soul.

You alone meet the hunger which only grace can fill,

The thirst which only You can quench.

Your promises are my hope,

Your Words, the joy of my heart.

Through the sword flowed the Living Water

that flowed through this desert reviving it,

bringing life once again to the parched land.

A whisper heard within my heart,

a bright light which questioned me.

I answered, “Yes”, but did not understand.

You called me to Yourself.

With hands outstretched you beckoned me.

You watered your flower in need of nourishment.

The rays poured out from Your Heart,

pierced for love of me.

You lifted up my soul in your powerful arms,

and held me close to You,

Filling my heart with an unknown love,

leaving your imprint upon my soul.

My spirit rejoices in You, my Savior.

My soul is filled with Your Light.

April 3, 1997:

Sometimes my heart is so filled with joy – I think it may burst;

Sometimes my heart is so filled with sorrow – I think I may die;

Sometimes I feel nothing, neither joy nor sorrow  - these are the worst times;

Oh that I would feel something!  I welcome even sorrow or pain instead of emptiness.

Meditation:  “…and She laid him in a manger because there was no room for them at the Inn” Luke 2:7

Mid-1997:

I pray to become empty – for my heart to become an empty space as the cave in which Jesus was born, and not to be full, as the Inn which had no room.  I pray to you my Mother, to place Jesus in my heart as you placed Him in the manger so that His glorious Light will inflame my poor heart, burning away all the impurities and all that which is not of God, filling the darkness of my soul with His Light.  May all be drawn to His Light as the Shepherd’s were drawn to the cave of His birth.  My Jesus, I pray that you will rest here in my heart where I will warm you with the warmth of Your very Love and form within me the empty space in which you will place the Celestial Gift of the Divine Will.   Amen

Sat., July 5, 1997, Adoration:

I was meditating on the Finding of Jesus in the Temple and the suffering of Mother Mary as She searched for three days for Her Jesus, and I thought about myself when I sometimes do not feel His presence.  How miserable I become!~  At one point during the Mass, I again thought about Our Lady and St. Joseph going in search of Jesus, and He said to me, “I did not leave them!”  I received light to understand that Mary and Joseph brought Jesus to the Temple, but He did not go off leaving them – it was they who left Him.  I knew that He was making me understand that it is never He who leaves us, but us who leave Him.  And where is it that we will find Him?  - in the Temple (the Church) and in theTemple of our hearts where He dwells.”

A few days after this, I picked up the Book of Heaven, Vol. 17, pg. 73, and read, “ I do not leave you – no, no.   This is an accusation you make against your Jesus.  I never leave anyone!  The creatures withdraw from Me, not I from them.  Rather, I go behind them and next to them.”

April, 1998, Meditation on the Resurrection:

I thought about Jesus’ words to Mary Magdalene, “Do not touch Me for I have not yet ascended to My Father.”  How holy and pure we must be before we touch Our dear Lord.  How many are the impure hands that touch Him each day when receiving Him in the Eucharist!  How many the impure hearts into which He descends each day!

Aug., 1998, Meditation on the Presentation:

I saw Anna as representing al l the faithful,  “and coming forward at that very time, she gave thanks to God…”  (Luke 2:38) In faith, we come forward to receive Our Lord in the Holy Eucharist, and we give thanks to God for a gift so great!  We go out from the “Temple” to speak of Jesus in the Eucharist to all who will listen, “…and spoke about the child to all who were awaiting the redemption of Jerusalem.”

 

Aug. 14, 1998:

I was thinking about John the Apostle as he rested his head upon the Heart of Our dear Lord:  John, what did you feel?  What did you hear?  Did you hear His Heart speaking to yours?  Were you engulfed in the flames of love bursting from His adorable Heart?  What did you say to Him?  Oh John, how I desire to rest my head upon the heart of my Jesus once again.  But He is as gone for me.  I no longer feel Him near me as I once did.  Have I not done His Will?  He has given me so many graces.  Have I used them as I should have?  Jesus, as you take your Light from me, I see myself as You see me, and I am sick at what I see!  I feel weighed down by sin, covered with filth and mud – yet my soul still clings to You.  I see myself grabbing on to the hem of Your robe and I will never let go.  I will continue to cling to You, my sweet Jesus, with all my strength.

During the Mass this day, I was praying that You would remember me for I feel so abandoned and alone.  I said to You, Jesus my heart, am I being detached from You? , and I heard very softly within my heart, No, no my Lynne.  You are a part of My Heart.   Would I tear out part of My Heart and throw it away?”

True fasting, Aug., 1998:

 I now understand what “true fasting is:  it is not the fasting on bread and water, although this is where we begin; it is the denying of self – fasting from what we desire for what God desires.  This does not only relate to food, but to everything.  We must discern what God’s desires are and what are our own.  It is only in this way that we may truly be emptied of self so that God may fill us.  Our Lady has taught us, as children, to fast on bread and water to allow us to understand this ultimate truth.

Sometime the end of 1998:

I wait to hear once again the sound of Your Voice whispering within my soul,

I wait to see once again your beautiful face within my soul,

Oh, how I long for you May God!

I feel as if the Holy Spirit has abandoned me,

And yet, I know you are before me as spectator, watching my every move,

listening to my every word.

Oh, when will you return to me My Divine Master?

You are everything to me, and how can I live without You?

It is a void you are making in  my soul which you will fill with Yourself –

Praise you My God – my breath, my life, my all!

Dec. 29, 1998:

Before Mass during prayer, I understood that I had nothing to offer God, that everything comes only from Him – I could not even love Him as I should, and a most beautiful prayer came to me something like this, “I love you my God, but I do not love you as you love me, therefore, I take the love with which you love me and make it my own so that I may offer you this same love with which you have loved me.”  Immediately I heard within my heart, “This is what will make us one!”

Beginning of 1999:

Consider this regarding women who want to be Priests:  I thought about the fourth joyful mystery of the Rosary, the Presenting of Jesus – Our Lady offered Her Son to the Father, not with her hands, but through the hands of Simeon the Priest!  Even the Mother of God did not offer Him through her own hands – if God wanted women to be Priests, certainly it would have been His will to be offered through the hands of The Immaculate One, and not through Simeon’s!

An understanding given through prayer, beginning of Dec., 1999:

I do not have any words to explain this, but in my feeble way I will attempt:

Sometimes after receiving Holy Communion (offered in the Divine Will), I seem to feel nothing within me – it is as though I no longer exist.  I felt this even more today and wondered why this would be.  As soon as this thought came to my mind, I was given Light to understand that as Jesus gave everything of Himself, I, in being united to Him, also must give everything of myself until there is nothing left of me – as the Host is broken and consumed until there is nothing left – so must I be.

Thurs., July 8, 1999:

Before Mass, I was inspired to pray for everyone to “listen with the ears of their souls and see with the eyes of their souls.”  Just after receiving Holy Communion, I understood that the Eucharistic Reign of Christ will be within our souls (we will see Him with the eyes of our souls), that this is NOT an exterior reign; we will become as living Hosts.  I understood so much but it is impossible for me to explain in words.   Immediately after this, I heard clearly within me, “And you will see Me as I Am!”

Prayer, July, 1999:

Oh my Jesus, please remove from me all that keeps me from living in your Holy Divine Will.  If there is anything of which I am unaware of that keeps me outside of Your Will, make it known to me that I may repent of it so as to live firmly in Your Will.  I ask you to make me into that image you had of me when I was first in Your Thoughts, and do not allow me to distort that image.  May I grow ever more in Your Light as to form a Heaven for you on earth and to be united with you forever for all Eternity.  Amen

A meditation on the prophecy of Simeon:

Heavenly Mother, I enter into Your sorrow at the prophecy of Simeon when you presented with St. Joseph the child Jesus in the Temple.  The joy you felt upon presenting Jesus to the Father was taken away by the words spoken by Simeon, “…and your heart will be pierced also…(Luke 2:34)   Oh, my sorrowful Mother, in these words was the knowledge given to you how many would reject your Motherly embrace and in rejecting you, would also be rejecting your Jesus.  How many souls were contained in yoru Hearts that would reject the many Graces that you wanted to offer them.  My sweet Mother, to make reparation to you for all the rejection you suffered upon seeing those souls that would not only reject your Jesus, but would also reject you, I bring you the love of all the faithful throughout the ages.  I bring you the love of Jesus, your Son; of the Holy Spirit, your spouse; and Our Heavenly Father, to comfort and console you in this great sorrow.  I will remain always with you upon your lap begging together with you that the Kingdom come on earth, as it is in Heaven.

 

A poem I wrote many years ago at Christmas time just after having come into the Church:

Our Loving Jesus, meek and mild,

Says “Bring to Me your little child.

Sit him down before me please,

And I will grant him all his needs.”

But we are too busy, we haven’t the time.

“My Gifts are great and beyond compare,

Show Me that you truly care.

I only ask a few moments of your time,

I will give you all I have, because you are mine.”

But we are too busy, we haven’t the time.

“I Am your Father, your Brother, your Friend,

I will never abandon you – I will be with you until the end.

You are my children, this you should know.

I will wait ‘til you come, for I love you so!”

But we are too busy, we haven’t the time.

Sometime Feb, 1996:

After a meditation class (we were meditating on being with Jesus at the Jordan), Sr. Maureen asked me why I didn’t put Jesus’ sandals on my feet when we were meditating.  After I spoke with her, I knew that I had to do this, and immediately I felt fear within me – not even knowing why.  I prayed to Our Lady to take away all my fears and to offer them to Jesus, asking for her help in what I was about to do.

“Jesus is sitting before me.  I kneel down at His feet taking one foot into my hands.  I slip off His sandal and kiss the wound on His foot.  I now take the other foot into my hands and do the same.  I stand up and slip both sandals onto my own feet saying as I do so, “Yes, I will lord, because I love you.”  I follow Jesus who now stands up and walks in front of me, and Mother Mary is on my left walking besides me.  We walk only a few steps and Jesus turns around facing me.  He doesn’t say a word, but I am enlightened and know that the Holy Spirit who will fill me completely, once I am empty, will do everything – I need do nothing!  What is there to fear?  I need only get out of His way!”  I understood after this that during my meditation class I was very comfortable being a little girl in the arms of Our Lord, but I feared having to be like Him – walking in His sandals!

I do not belong of the earth,

I belong to Heaven.

In order for me to get to Heaven,

I must spend my time on earth,

Acting as though I belong to Heaven!

5/2/15  FIRST SATURDAY MEDITATION

Asking our Mother Mary to help me to meditate, my mind was brought to the loss of Jesus in the Temple.  I contemplated how St. Joseph and Our Lady went to the Temple for the Feast Day and how they were both separated from Jesus.   I thought about how they took their eyes off of Jesus, and each of them thinking Jesus was with the other, they then left the Temple – Our Lady with the women, and St. Joseph with the men – until they met up along the path to their home.   Realizing He was not with the other, they returned to Jerusalem to look for Him.  How many times we take our eyes of our souls off of Jesus and go away from Him, and how long does it take us to return to Him.

Leaving the Temple, Our Lady went with the other women and St. Joseph went with the men, meeting somewhere along the path towards their home.  Each thinking Jesus was with the other, upon meeting they realized they had lost Jesus.  They immediately returned to Jerusalem to look for Him.  Searching for Him for three days they returned to the Temple and there they found Him.  Jesus waits for us in the Temple of our hearts and in the Temple of His Church, but do we search for Him?  I thought about how it was that they could lose Him, and realized it was not He who left them – it was they who left Him.  And so He says to us, “I never leave you.  It is always you who leave me.”

Jesus, help us to never take the eyes of our hearts and souls off of You!

LB