I have been discerning for quite sometime about posting this, but I feel Our Lord desires this because of the lack of faith in the Church and in our world. I begin with my coming into the Catholic Church in Jan. 1993. This is offered for your discernment. Your are free to believe or not to believe, but be sure that what I have written is what I have experienced in truth and from my heart. Some of this is copied from my notes and other is written from memory:
This particular writing is written from memory on March 12, 2018: I had been drawn to Adoration before the Blessed Sacrament for some time prior to coming into the Church. One day I had been in the Adoration chapel at St. Paul of the Cross in North Palm Bch., FL and while in prayer, I saw interiorly a vision of Jesus standing in before the Monstrance with His hands out towards me and said to me, “Come to me.” I understood immediately what this meant and went to one of the Priests and told him what I experienced. He told me he wanted me to come into the Church right away, and he set the date for January 12, 1993 – my dad’s birthday. I had a choice to either go with my family to my dad’s birthday party or give myself to Jesus. I chose the latter, much to the dismay of my family. There were very few people at the Church – only my husband, a few friends, and two of our Priests. The Bishop was not present, but the Priests had his permission for the ceremony. (March 14, 2018 – (two days after what I have written above) During my Adoration hour today, I was reading from the book “In Sinu Jesu” and read: “How often did I say to my disciples, ‘Come to me.’” Once again I thank Our Lord for this confirmation!)
Sat. June 5, 1993 –
Adoration chapel St. Josephs Church, Stuart, FL (pg. 12 of my notes)
During Adoration a shape of a heart, a faint redish color,
appeared in the lower left corner (facing the Host) of the Host. This heart was not visible when I first came
into the chapel, but only appeared as I was praying while looking at the
Host. I was alone in the chapel. (As I had entered into the Catholic Church in
Jan. of this year, only 5 months prior to this experience, I wasn’t aware that
the Blessed Sacrament could not be left alone which happened many times at this
church during my visits for Adoration).
When the heart appeared, I went directly in front of the large Host to
see if it was possibly a reflection coming from somewhere, but as there were no
windows or anything that could have caused this, knelt down before the Host and
prayed. My mind kept thinking how
perfect the shape of the heart was – I just kept saying this to myself over and
over. Then while praying I heard in my
interior, “By My cross and resurrection,
I have saved you.”
1993 – St. Josephs
Church, Stuart, FL
During the Mass I felt a coldness in the Church which I did
not usually feel as when I enter a Catholic Church I can feel the presence of
God, but this day that presence was not there.
As I was so upset, a thought came to me that perhaps I should leave the
Church as I felt God was not present in this Church, but I remained there. As the Priest elevated the Host during the
Consecration, I saw a bright light just to the left and above the Host which
seemed to draw slowly into the Host.
Upon seeing this, I felt tremendous peace within me.
April 9, 1994 – St.
Josephs Church, Stuart, FL – the day before Divine Mercy Sunday
Once again I had the feeling of my soul being elevated and
during the Consecration surrounding the Host was a bright light especially on
the left side. I doubted what I was
seeing and a thought came to me that it was a reflection from the windows. Then when the Priest consecrated the Precious
Blood, rays of light came from the top of the chalice.
May 28, 1994 – St.
Paul of the Cross, North Palm Bch., FL
During the Mass there was a fragrance of roses around me
especially when I approached the altar during Communion. I felt a presence to my left side as I
received Jesus.
Tues. 3/28/95 7:30AM - Adoration Chapel at St. Paul!s
While praying with my eyes closed, a bright light filled my vision. From the light I saw what appeared to be a very large chair with a high back and side arms. It was as though looking through a fog of light. I then could see, very vaguely, an outline of a person engulfed in the light. The light was very bright and I could not see clearly at all. At first I thought my mind conjured up a great sight! then began to think of Our Heavenly Father and fell into a prayer to Him. I then said to Him, "How can people not know that you are their Father, our Daddy. How can they think of you as being anything other than that (thinking about all the people that call Him Father-Mother, not recognizing Him as their Father). " I still thought that this was my imagination as I continued seeing this vision before me. It startled me to hear Him say to me, "Love them as I love them." I then thought that this was possibly S. trying to trick me so I immediately prayed to cast out any evil spirits, but it just stayed there before my eyes. A little while later He said, “The veil will soon come down.” For some reason I didn't want to listen as I could feel that He was going to say something else, so I began praying again. He again said, "The veil will soon come down. Then you will see wonders as you have never seen. " Moments later He said, I Am,(slight pause)Yahweh. " All of this must have taken about 20 minutes. It was as if in slow motion. His voice was so very tender and loving! He spoke very slowly and clearly. My body felt as though I were no longer there in the chapel, but when someone came in the door, I was aware of their presence After I left the chapel, throughout Mass and for some time later, my body felt "numb". I have felt the peace of Our Lord before, but never anything quite like this. During Mass at the elevation of the Host, I saw a light come out of the back of the Host, facing Fr. Art. After communion, extremely bright lights were flashing in my head mostly coming from the right side and many shadows appeared.
The next night (3/29/95),
my husband asked me for this message and while reading it said he didn’t
understand what “The veil will soon come down” meant. He had just prayed for an answer when a
Bishop speaking on EWTN showed a picture of Pope Leo NIII. There was a lady in
the picture who was wearing a veil on her head - her hands were on the veil
looking as though she were going to pull it down over her face. The Bishop went
on to explain that this represented a death approaching or that Rome or a
civilization was coming to an end, or
that there was going to be a new time approaching.
This morning at Mass just after the Consecration, I saw the
face of Jesus to my left (my eyes were closed at the time). His head was surrounded with a crown of
thorns; His cheeks sunken and hollow; His eyes staring above me and over my
right shoulder. The vison seemed to be
in black and white, but I saw very clearly His eyes not staring at me, but past
me and very, very sad. He did not speak,
but it came to me that reparation needed to be made for all who receive Him in
a state of mortal sin.
April 26, 1995, early
AM – St. Paul of the Cross
Jesus told me that I would feel His presence in a special
way this day. The moment I knelt down
before Him in the Adoration chapel, I could feel great power coming from the
Blessed Sacrament. This power filled my
entire being; my vision was filled with bright lights that seemed to flash
inside my head. The entire day I felt the
presence of Our Lord and continuously praised Him. It was as though He was with me the whole day
and night. My body seemed to float
wherever I went. Thank you, Jesus for
this grace!
August, 1995,
Adoration chapel St. Paul of the Cross
I saw an image of Jesus on the Cross and my heart was broken
with sorrow for what He was suffering – the loss of souls. He spoke to me of His suffering and said that
we are still not listening. He allowed
me to fell just a drop of His sorrow and thanked me for my tears. I continued to cry most of this day!
Friday, Sept. 1, 1995
Adoration chapel
I asked Our Lord to increase the love in my heart. He replied that love does not come without
suffering and asked if I were willing to suffer. After I replied, I felt Him very happy. He then said to me, “I want you closer to Me. I will
lift up your soul to Me.” At that
moment I felt myself being drawn towards the Host. It seemed that my body remained kneeling
where it was a but another part of me was moving towards the Host. (impossible
to explain!) My body was completely immersed in peace. In spirit I kissed the face of Jesus and then
felt I had done something bad. He told
me to always kiss Him as this pleases Him very much and is consoles Him.
Dec. 17, 1996 – Immediately
after receiving Holy Communion, I became totally absorbed in His Love and
almost could not take one step forward to return back to my seat. I guess it was my Angel that returned me because
I certainly was incapable.
Wed. Jan. 29, 1997 AM
– St. Paul of the Cross, North Palm Bch.
Just before Mass I was in the Adoration chapel and saw a
vision of Jesus standing at a distance from me and could feel that He was very
angry. I thought His anger was directed
to me and I racked my brain trying to understand what I could have done to
offend Him so much. Suddenly I saw a
very large bowl in His hands and it looked as though He were about to pour it
out. I could no longer look at Him as I
felt His terrible anger. Then I saw
Mother Mary standing off to His right side looking at Him and I ran to Her
dropping to the ground besides Her. I
called to Her, but She did not answer nor did She look at me but continued to
look at Jesus. I called again and She
said very softly, “Son.” – nothing
more. The bowl then disappeared, but
Jesus’ anger did not abate. I left the chapel for Mass and at one point during
the Mass, I heard very loudly as to echo through my heart, “They are still not listening!”
I have been disturbed by this all day – I am writing this at 2:45PM in
the chapel as I returned for Adoration this afternoon.
The next day: I know
how strange what I have written above seems, and if I had not felt His anger I
would have thought this to be my imagination.
I feel that it is only through Mother Mary that God’s anger lessons at
all! Today I do not feel His presence
and my soul seems as though in total darkness.
I have been thinking about what Jesus said to me on Monday about His
bitterness – while praying the Divine Mercy Chaplet I gathered the courage to
tell Him, “Pour your bitterness into me my sweet Jesus – it is for love of you
and because I know that you love me!”
The most bitter suffering for me is to not feel His presence!
Thurs. Jan. 30, 1997 –
St. Paul of the Cross
I began thinking about the vision I had yesterday and
thought to myself that if this were from God then why was I so very upset all
day long. As I began thinking that this may have been a trick of satan, I asked
though the intercession of Luisa Piccarreta for confirmation that it was from
Our Lord and not my imagination. During the Mass after receiving Holy
Communion, I suddenly found the infant Jesus in my arms- oh, what great joy I
felt! I pressed Him to my heart and kissed
the tears that ran down His little face.
As we prayed the Rosary after Mass, it was my turn to pray a decade,
which so happened to be the Nativity.
What a beautiful gift I was given – a most beautiful meditation while I
held our Jesus in my arms! After the
Rosary, I went to Sr. Maureen’s class which was to be about the prayers of the
Mass. Before beginning class, she asked everyone to meditate on the infant
Jesus and to see God the Father watching His Son. I immediately understood that
this was an answer to my prayer. Thank
you, Jesus, Mary and Luisa!
Friday, Jan. 31, 1997
– St. Paul of the Cross
(I do not want to write about this but am
doing so in obedience to my Jesus who has told me to write everything because
His words and actions through me are "so
simple as to melt even hardened hearts".) When I awoke this morning, I
felt Holy Mother's presence and felt as though she were right besides me.
During Mass after receiving Holy Communion, I felt Jesus place His forehead
upon mine (this happens to me often when I am looking at the picture of the
Shroud of the Holy Face). He seemed so very sad and asked that I remain with
Him this way all day to console Him. I have remained in His presence thus even
up to when I am writing this. During the Rosary after Mass (we were praying the
Sorrowful Mysteries of the scriptural rosary), He remained with me in this
special way and spoke to me during each scripture verse. He said how sad He is
over how many souls He suffered for in vain. Other things I remember Him saying
"The church will walk to Calvary as
I did. " "As the veil in [he temple was rent in two, so will my
church be. " My heart would have broken with sadness if I were not so
happy over feeling Him so very close to me in this way! How can anyone reject
Him who loves us so much? During each of the Our Fathers, Jesus looked up
towards Heaven, but I did not hear His voice, I only felt Him praying with me
to God our Father.
There is so much I would like to
explain but am totally incapable and only through the Grace of God, if it so
pleases Him, can I explain any of these things at all!
End of April, 1997 – Before
receiving Communion, I prayed that Our Lady would be with me when I received
Her Son in the Eucharist, that Her arms would be in mine to hold Jesus together
with me, to embrace Him for everyone, that Her heart be in mine that we might
love Him for everyone, that Her lips be in mine that we might kiss Him for
everyone. After received Communion, I
felt Our Lady completely enfold me in Her mantle. It was as though She was
within me, and we held Jesus together embracing and kissing Him for everyone.
Monday, April 28, 1997
– After receiving Holy Communion, I felt my body become very heavy as if I were
being weighed down. I felt this very
much in my heart and it seemed to me that I could feel another heart beating
within mine. I do not know or understand
this grace I was given and am not able to describe it.
July 15 1997 – It
is not possible for me to describe the graces I receive from Our Lord,
especially after receiving Communion. I
can only say that I feel Jesus very
alive within me, but there are no words to explain this experience.
Nov., 1997 –
Divine Will Conference, Rome GA – After receiving Communion, I saw Jesus within
me, and resting my head upon His, I became totally lost in Him. Suddenly my heart was overcome with
sorrow. I understood from this that He
was sharing with His sorrow and tears.
How does one explain these graces?
July 8, 1999 –
After receiving Communion, in an instant I understood that the Eucharist Reign
of Christ will be within our souls (we will see Him with the eyes of our souls)
– that this is NOT an exterior reign; we will become as living Hosts. I understood so much but it is impossible for
me to explain the understanding that was given to me in that moment. Just after this I heard very clearly within
me, “And
you will see Me as I AM!”
July 27, 2001 – Just after receiving Communion,
I seemed to see within me little Jesus, who was about 3 or 4 years old. He ran towards me very excitedly and put out
His hand towards mine. Taking my hand in
His, He said to me, “Come!” I thought to myself that He wanted to show me
something very beautiful as He was so excited.
We seemed to come across a very large field. Then pointing towards the field He said, “Look!”
I looked out and saw a sea of bodies lying everywhere. They looked so sad and broken. He then said to me, “They need healing.” I
replied to Him, “But Jesus, there is nothing I can do for them.” He replied, “You will heal them with your heart, my
Lynne.” At that moment my heart
became very heavy and I felt as if it could have broken for the sorrow I felt
for them.
Aug. 30, 2001 (written
the next day) Yesterday morning at Mass, I felt as if I were being held or
surrounded by someone. I felt our
Heavenly Father speak to me saying, “I
hold you in my arms.” I cannot
describe the feeling that came over me – I almost felt weightless (this feeling
remained with me the entire day). I felt
incredible peace. Then I heard, “Clothed in the garment of My Son you will
be.” After receiving Communion, it
seemed to me that our Heavenly Father was so pleased to have His arms around me
– as it was no longer me but His Son He was holding!
Friday, Feb.1, 2003 –
Shrine of the Most Blessed Sacrament: After receiving Holy Communion, I saw Jesus
interiorly as sitting upon my heart as if on a throne; His back towards me,
looking out, with something like a rod (a scepter?) in His right hand. He spoke to me saying, “It is from here I will reign”. He
suddenly turned into a little child of about 3 or 4 years old, but remain sitting
there upon my heart with the rod in His hand.
Jesus then spoke saying, “I will reign in those who love me.”
Nov. 1, 2013 –
Before Mass began, I experienced someone before me (interiorly) and I was
trying to pull something out of his hands.
It seemed as though I were fighting with this person for whatever it was
that I had been trying to get, and that I became very strong in fighting for
it. After receiving Communion, I saw the
entire earth was placed in my hands and I offered it to God loving Him and
thanking Him for myself and for all, for all that He has given to us on earth
and in the entire universe – I was praying the rounds of Creation.
Written today, Jan. 2,
2014 – (This happened sometime in November, but I failed to write it
because of my doubts, but since that time I think about this and it brings me
to tears, so I write because Jesus wants me to): Just before the Consecration of the Mass,
little Jesus, who seemed to be about 2 years old, came into my thoughts, and
suddenly I saw Him enter into the Host at the Consecration, coming from the
right side of the altar. After receiving
Communion, I felt the Host form only what I can describe of as a soft ball, and
I could feel a heartbeat on my tongue which I continued to feel even as I
consumed the Host. I felt great inner
peace, but as I thought about what a great grace I had been given, I began to
cry. My Jesus, you have given me so much
and what do I give You? All I can give
you is my nothingness.
June 12, 2015, St. John Neumann Church – This morning
as I knelt down before Mass began, I seemed to feel the heart of Jesus beating
from within the Tabernacle. As Mass
began, I found that it was the Feast of the Sacred Heart today which I had
forgotten about.
All for the Glory of God and the salvation of souls
Lynne Bauer, JMJ
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