Letter from SAINT ANNIBALE DI FRANCIA to Luisa

Most esteemed one in the Lord,

I already sent you the two little bottles of that ink you asked me for – for the fountain pen. Write me, if you need notebooks. I hope, if good Jesus wants – I hope in His Divine Will to come to the Continent around the end of July. I can no longer travel by train, because my legs get swollen. I’ll try to arrive in Taranto by steam boat, and then from Taranto to Oria, and from Oria to Trani, as trips of a few hours – so be it. It seems to me that the time of the departure for the great journey is approaching…

Currently, in my morning meditation, in addition to the adorable Passion of Our Lord Jesus, beloved of our hearts, I meditate – that is, I read slowly and with reflection – two or three chapters of your writings in the Divine Will; and the impressions I draw are intimate and profound! I see a sublime and Divine Science, though I still do not understand it completely, given the scarcity of my intelligence.

These are writings that must now be made known to the world. I believe they will produce great good. For as sublime as this science of the Divine Will is, so do these writings of divine dictation present it, clearly and limpidly. In my opinion, no human intellect would have been able to form them.

The Hours of the Passion, 4th Edition, is already at the end of the printing, including the little treatise on the Divine Will. However, I am preparing several new chapters chosen from your writings, and I will add them to the Treatise with a little preface. In the meantime I have commissioned new paper for the printing of one entire first volume about the Divine Will, of the size of the Hours; but we will make the choice of the material when I come, God willing, together with your spiritual Father and with you.

I received a letter from Turin, from a cleric in love with the Divine Will, who is waiting for the new publications. He had written to me three years ago, and he had published in a Catholic periodical some chapters of the Little Treatise of the Divine Will, which is in the Hours.

However, I always insist on one point – that is, sanctity does not consist of a formula. In order to form, with this new Science, saints who may surpass those of the past, the new Saints must also have all of the virtues, and in heroic degree, of the ancient Saints – of the Confessors, of the Penitents, of the Martyrs, of the Anachorists, of the Virgins, etc. etc.

Now I present to you the most heartfelt wishes for your Name Day. May most beloved Saint Aloysius, whose Name you carry, obtain for you all the fire of Divine Love, and perfect consummation in the Divine Will!

I pray you to carry also miserable me, in your flights in the Divine Will! Meanwhile, for you I implore, in my meager prayers, the superabundant grace through which you may correspond perfectly to all the divine designs upon you. Amen.

Many regards to your sister. If you change your home, give me your new address.

I kiss the hands of the Most Reverend Father Confessor. I bless you in the Most Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary, and I say,

Yours in J.C. Canonico A.M. Di Francia 

Abandonment in the Divine Will

 Abandonment in the Divine Will

VOLUME 8 - June 23, 1907

“My daughter, the most beautiful act, and the one that pleases Me most, is abandonment in My Will.  Abandonment to the extent that one does not remember that his own being exists, but only the Divine Volition.  Although sorrow for one’s sins is good and commendable, it doesn’t destroy one’s own being.  On the other hand, abandoning oneself completely in My Will destroys one’s being, and makes one repossess the Divine Being.

“Then the soul, by abandoning herself in My Will, gives Me more honor.  This is because she gives Me all that I could require from the creature.  The soul lets Me repossess in Myself what had gone forth from Me, and the soul repossesses the only thing she should repossess:  God.  Moreover, in repossessing God, she repossesses all the good that God Himself possesses.  It is only when the soul is completely in the Will of God that she repossesses God.  Additionally, if she leaves My Will she reacquires her own being, together with all the evils of her corrupt nature.”

VOLUME 9 - December 22, 1909

"My daughter, in almost all souls to whom I have communicated myself in an extraordinary way, I have permitted these states of abandonment at the end of their lives, though not solely for [the many] various ends of mine, but that I might also remain honored and justified in all of my conduct.  Why do so many say:  'Certainly these souls must have arrived at a very high level of sanctity and loved Him so much!  With so many favors, with so many graces and gifts, they would have felt well ungrateful for not having arrived at such great heights.  Where they bestowed upon us, we would have arrived at even greater heights than they'...  And I, to justify my conduct, manifest to them the abandonments, the privations in which I have placed these souls which for them is a living purgatory, as well as their fidelity, the heroism of their virtues and how it is easier and more tolerable to suffer poverty without knowing riches than to be born rich, accustom one's self to live rich and then lose such riches, being left poor.  I moreover show that supernatural riches are not like material riches, which serve [merely] for the body and at the most externally attract attention; Supernatural riches, [on the other hand] penetrate into the very marrow, into the most intimate fibers, to the most noble part of one's intelligence:  it suffices to say that it is more than a martyrdom.

VOLUME 10 - January 27, 1912

This morning Jesus showed me a soul who was crying, but it seemed mostly a cry of love.  Jesus held her close, and it seemed there was a cross inside her heart.  When it was squeezed, the soul felt abandonments, coldnesses, agonies, distractions, oppressions; and as the soul struggled, she sometimes slipped away from Jesus’ arms to place herself at His feet.  Jesus wanted her to resist this by remaining in his arms while in this state, telling her, “If you can endure in this state, remaining in my arms without wavering, this cross shall be your sanctification; otherwise, you will always remain in one place.”...

VOLUME 12 - July 4, 1918

“Ah, My daughter, there is needed great abandonment in Me.  Moreover, as the soul abandons herself in Me, so I abandon Myself in her.  Then, filling her with Me, I Myself do that which (she) ought to do for Me.  If later she does not abandon herself [in Me], then what she does remains fixed in her, not in Me, and I feel the work of the creature full of imperfections and miseries—which will not be able to please Me.”

VOLUME 12 - August 6, 1919

“Abandonment in Me is the image of two streams, where one flows into the other with such force that the waters mingle and they form waves of very high water which even reach at touching Heaven; thus the bottom of those streams is left dry.  Moreover, the sound of those waters, their murmur, is so sweet and harmonious that Heaven, in seeing itself touched by those waters, feels itself honored and feels sparkling with new beauty.  And in chorus the Saints say:  ‘This sweet sound and harmony that enraptures is a soul who has abandoned herself in God.  How beautiful she is!  How beautiful she is!

Another day He said to me:  “What are you afraid of?  Abandon yourself in Me and you will be surrounded by Me, as inside of a circle, in such a way that if enemies, occasions, [or] dangers come, they will have to deal with Me, not with you, and I will answer for you.  True abandonment in Me is rest for the soul, and work for Me.  Moreover, if [the soul is] restless it means that she is not abandoned in Me.  Restlessness is apt pain for who wants to live in herself, doing Me a great wrong—and herself great harm.”

VOLUME 13 - October 18, 1921

I spent a day distracted because of a few things that I felt (it isn't necessary to say what) and even upset.  No matter how hard I tried, I was unable to free myself.  For the entire day, therefore, I did not see my sweet Jesus, the Life of my soul.  It was as though the disquiet were a veil that, putting itself between the two of us, prevented me from being able to see Him.  Finally, late at night, my tired mind calmed down.  And my amiable Jesus, as though He had been waiting, appeared and said to me with sorrow:

"My daughter, today, with your disquiet, you have prevented the sun of my Person from rising within you.  Your disquiet is a cloud between you and Me, and it prevents the rays from descending into you.  If the rays do not descend, how can you see the sun?  If you knew what it means to prevent my Sun from rising, and what a great evil it is for you and the entire world, you would be very careful to never again become upset!  It is always night for those souls that are upset; the sun never rises.  For tranquil souls, instead, it is always day: my Sun wants to rise at any hour whatsoever; the soul is always ready to receive the good of my coming.

"And then, disquiet is nothing else than a lack of abandonment in Me.  I want you to be so abandoned in my arms that you need not be concerned about anything; I will take care of everything.  Do not fear; your Jesus can do no less than take care of you and protect you from everything.  You cost Me a lot; I have put much in you.  I alone have rights over you.  So, if the rights are my own, your care will be all my own.  So be at peace and do not fear."

VOLUME 15 - July 5, 1923

“Wanting to examine Me, Pilate asked Me, ‘Are You a king?  Where is your kingdom?’  I wanted to teach another sublime lesson by saying, ‘I am a king’.  By this response, I wanted to say.  ‘Do you know what my kingdom is?’  My sufferings, my Blood and my virtues are my Kingdom.  They are the true Kingdom, which I possess, not outside of Me, but within Me.  Whatever one possess on the outside is neither a true kingdom nor a true dominion, because whatever is not inside of man can be taken away or usurped, and he will be forced to leave it behind.  Instead, whatever is on the inside cannot be taken away; its ownership will be eternal within him.  The characteristics of my Kingdom are my wounds, my crown of thorns and my cross.  I do not, therefore, behave like other kings, who make the people live apart from them with little security or even food.  Not I:  I call my people to dwell within the rooms of my wounds, fortified and defended by my sufferings, quenched by my Blood and nourished by my Flesh, and only this is what it means to truly rule.  All other kingdoms are ones of slavery, of danger and of death.  In my Kingdom, instead, there is true Life.

“How many sublime teachings, how many profound mysteries there are in my words!  Every soul should say to itself in its sufferings and humiliations, in its abandonment by everyone, in its practice of true virtue:  ‘This is my kingdom which will not perish.  No one can take it from me nor touch it; indeed, my kingdom is eternal and divine, similar to that of my sweet Jesus.  My sufferings certify me and fortify my kingdom.  No one will wage battle with me in view of my great fortress. . . .’  This is a kingdom of peace towards which all my sons should aspire.”

VOLUME 16 - February 2, 1924

"My daughter, my Will is life and motion of everything; but do you know who follows this motion and takes flight in my Eternal Volition in a manner that it goes around in the ambience of Eternity, and finds himself where It is found and goes and does what It does?  The soul, by abandoning itself fully in my Holy Will.  Abandonment forms the wings to fly together with my Volition; as it ceases to abandon itself, so it loses the flight and the wings become destroyed.  Thus everyone feels the motion of life of my Will, because there is no motion that does not depart from Me but remains there at the point where they are; only who has the wings of abandonment in Me that goes the same way of my Will, flies above everything, be it in Heaven or on earth, it enters into the ambience of Eternity and goes 'round in the midst of the Three Divine Persons, it penetrates into the most intimate hiding place of Them and is up-to-date with their secrets and of their beatitudes.

"Thus it happens as to a machine where in the midst there is prime wheel and around it so many other little wheels that are fixed.  As the prime wheel moves, all receive its motion but they never reach to touch the prime wheel nor are they able to do anything of what it does and have any of the goods that it contains.  On the other hand, another little wheel which is not fixed, and by means of a mechanism goes 'round always for all the wheels, in order to find itself in each motion of the first wheel and prime wheel and do again its round, now this little wheel going around knows what there is in the prime wheel, and takes part in the goods that it contains.  Well, the first wheel is my Will; the fixed wheels are the souls abandoned to themselves which renders them immobilized in doing good; the wheel going around is the soul that lives in my Will, and the mechanism is total abandonment in Me.  Thus, each lack of abandonment is a round that one loses in the ambience of Eternity...  If you knew what it means to lose an Eternal Round!"

I, in hearing that, said:  "But tell me, my Love, what does Eternity mean and what is this Eternal Round?"

And Jesus added:  "My daughter, Eternity is an immense circle where it cannot be known either where it begins or where it ends.  In this circle is found God without beginning, without end, where He possesses infinite felicity, beatitude, joys, riches, beauty, etc., in each Divine motion that never ceases He puts forth from this circle of Eternity new felicity, new beauty, new beatitudes, etc., but this new is an act that is never interrupted; distinct among themselves our are always new, one is not equal to the other, they are such and so many of our beatitudes that while We enjoy one another is always surprising Us and they never end, they are Eternal, immense, on par with Us and what is Eternal has the virtue of making rise always new things; the old, the repeated things, do not even exist in what is Eternal.

VOLUME 16 - February 10, 1924

"As for example about abandonment to living in my Volition.  If the Soul would not live all abandoned in my Will, it would be as a person who lived in a sumptuous palace and one time he goes out the window and another time he goes out onto the balcony and then he descends to the main entrance, thus the poor thing passes little or nothing from whatever room and so he does not understand either the rules nor the work that is necessary nor the goods that there are, nor what he can take, nor what he can give.  Who can say how many goods there are and she does not understand them, therefore she does not love as she ought to love, nor does she give the esteem that that palace merits.  Now to the soul that lives in my Will and is not all abandoned in It, its own reflections, its care of itself, its fears, its disturbances are none other than windows and balconies and entrances that are formed in the will and going out quite often, she is constrained to see and to hear the miseries of the human life and since the miseries are her own property and the richnesses of my Will are mine, she is more attached to the miseries than to the riches and so (                             ) nor will she appreciate what it means to live in my Volition; and having formed for herself the main door, one day or another she will go out of it in order to live in the miserable hut of her will.  You see, therefore, how necessary it is full abandonment in Me in order to live in my Will.  It has no need of the miseries of the human will; It wants the creature to live together with her, beautiful as she was put forth from her bosom, without the miserable apparatus that has been formed in the exile of life; otherwise, there would be disparity which would bring sorrow to mine and unhappiness to the human will.

VOLUME 19 - April 16, 1926

I felt so little and incapable of doing anything; and I called my Queen Mamma to help me, so that, together with me, we could love, adore, glorify my greatest and only good for everyone and in the name of everyone.  At that moment I found myself in an immensity of light and all abandoned in the arms of the Heavenly Father; indeed, I was so unified with Him as if I had formed one single thing with Him, in a way that I no longer felt my life but that of God.  But who can say what I experienced and what I did?

And so, after that, my sweet Jesus went out from within my interior and said to me:  "My daughter, all that you experienced, your full abandonment into the arms of your Heavenly Father, your no longer feeling your own life is the image of living in my Will, because, to live in it, one must live more of God than of himself; rather, the nothing must cede its life to the All in order to do all and to have his act at the head of the acts of every creature.  

VOLUME 20 - November 16, 1926

I continue in my usual state of abandonment in the Supreme Fiat, but I cannot do less than call Him, who forms all my happiness, my life, my all.  And Jesus with his usual goodness said to me:  "My daughter, for how much more you abandon yourself in my Supreme Will, so much more you advance in Its ways, so much more knowledge you acquire and so much more do you take possession of the goods that are in It.  For who lives in the Divine Will there is always knowing and taking because It, being the primary inheritance given by God to the creature and possessing eternal goods, It has the task of always giving to whomever lives in this heritage.  Thus, the soul who lives in the Divine Will forms Its festivity; as on the contrary, who lives outside It forms Its sorrow, because she makes It incapable of being able to give, of exercising Its office and of carrying out Its task.

VOLUME 20 - May 12, 1934

"My beloved daughter, for how much more is understood of my Will, so much the more is enjoyed of Its beauty and sanctity, so much more does one participate in Its goods; and abandonment in It destroys all the obstacles and grips the soul tightly in Its arms, which, without effort, can regenerate Its Divine Life in the creature.  True and complete abandonment says with deeds:  'Do with me what you want; my life is yours, and of my own I do not want to know anything of it.'  Thus, abandonment has the virtue of putting the creature into the power of my Divine Will.  

VOLUME 35 - December 25, 1937

This is why I would want that you too did not occupy yourselves with your weaknesses, your evils and your troubles. In fact, the more the creature thinks about those, the weaker she feels, and the more the poor one feels drowned by evils, while her miseries press round her more strongly.  By thinking about it, weakness feeds more weakness, and the poor creature falls even more; evils become stronger, miseries reduce her to starvation.  But if she doesn’t think about them, they disappear by themselves.  

Good is completely the opposite.  One good feeds another good - one act of love calls for more love.  One abandonment in my Will makes her feel the new Divine Life within herself.  Therefore, thinking of good, forms the food and the strength to do more good.  This is why I want your thinking to be occupied by nothing other than loving me and living in my Will.  My Love will burn all your miseries and all your evils, and my Divine Volition will become your Life, using your miseries as the base on which to raise Its Throne.”

VOLUME 35 - March 6, 1938

How bad it sounds to Us when We notice that a creature in our Will is afflicted or oppressed!  And since she lives in our Volition, from the one Will which animates Us, We are forced to hear her afflictions and oppressions.  Setting Ourselves aside when the creature feels afflicted is not of our Divine Being - not of our Love.  Rather, We make use of our Power, and We inundate her more with our Love, so that We may see her again with a smile on her lips, and with joy inside her heart.  And then, the thought of the past is really absurd - it is like wanting to claim divine rights.  You must know that all the beautiful and good things which the creature has done are deposited inside Ourselves,  attesting to her love and the glory she gives Us, and forming her crown for her first entrance into our Celestial Fatherland.  Therefore, the most beautiful act of the creature is to throw herself into our arms - abandon herself - letting Us make whatever We want to make of her, in time as well as in eternity.  Only then, do We get all the savor of making her one of the most beautiful statues to adorn our Celestial Jerusalem.”

Then He added:  “My daughter, when the creature abandons herself in our Will, our satisfaction is so great that she pours into Us, and We pour into her, giving her our new Life, new love, new sanctity and new knowledge of our Supreme Being.  When the creature abandons herself in our Divine Volition, We can make the greatest prodigies and the most surprising graces in her, since our own Will will receive and deposit what We want to give to the creature.  By abandoning herself in our Will, she storms Heaven, and her empire is such that she imposes herself over our Divine Being, enclosing It within her littleness; while she, triumphant, encloses herself within our Divine Womb. 

The Heavens are amazed, and the Angels and the Saints remain ecstatic; all feel a new life flowing within themselves, by virtue of the act of abandonment of the creature, while still a pilgrim.  And finding her abandoned in our FIAT, We find that We can do whatever We want - she lends herself completely to our Power.  So We begin the work, and form in the soul many little fountains of Love, Goodness, Sanctity, Mercy, and so on.  In this way, when our Love wants to love, We set those little fountains of Love in motion with our omnipotent breath, and she loves Us, letting so much love overflow from the fount, as to float the entire Celestial Court.  When We want to use Goodness, Mercy or Grace, We set these founts in motion, and the earth remains floated by our Goodness and Mercy - and some are converted, some receive graces....

We could do all this directly by Ourselves, but We feel more delighted and pleased in using the founts which We Ourselves have formed inside the creature.  Through her, We feel more moved to use our mercy toward all.  We have our intermediary between Heaven and earth, who, in her abandon, makes Us pour graces and makes Us love all the creatures with new love.  Therefore, the more you are abandoned in our Will, the more magnanimous We will be toward you and toward others.  And all - at least the more disposed - will find new strength and new guidance.”

Lynne Bauer JMJ

The Difference between the Sacraments and the Divine Will

 Luisa:  I thought to myself:  “What difference is there between the Sacraments and the Divine Will?”

And my Sovereign Jesus, tearing his Eucharisti“My blessed daughter, the difference is Great between the one and the other.  The Sacraments are the Effects of My Will; on the other hand, It is Life, and as Life, with Its Creative Power It forms and gives Life to the Sacraments.  The Sacraments do not have the virtue of giving Life to My Will, because It is Eternal, It has neither beginning nor end.  Instead, My Adorable Will always occupies the First Place in all things, and possessing the Creative Virtue by Its Nature, It creates things and Its own Life, where It wants, when and how It wants.  One can tell the difference, an image of which is between the sun and the effects that the sun produces:  these do not give life to the sun, but they receive the life of the sun and must remain at its disposition, because the sun produces the life of the effects.  

“And then, the Sacraments they receive according to time, to places and to circumstances.  Baptism is given one time, and no more.  The Sacrament of Penance is given when one falls into sin.  My very Sacramental Life is given only one time a day.  And the poor creature, during this length of time, does not feel over herself the Strength, the help of the Baptismal Waters that Regenerate her continuously, nor the Sacramental Words of the Priest that fortify her in a continuous way by saying to her:  ‘I absolve you from your sins.’  Nor does she find in her weaknesses and trials of life, not even her Sacramental Jesus whom she can take at all the hours of the day.  

“On the other hand, My Divine Will, possessing the Primary Act of Life and of being able to give Life, with Its Empire holds the continuous Act over the creature.  In every instant It gives Itself as Life, Life of Light, of Sanctity, of Love, Life of Strength.  In sum, as It is Life, the times, circumstances, places, hours, do not exist.  There are no restrictions, or laws, especially because It must give Life, and Life is formed with acts that are continuous, not intermittent.  And therefore in the ardor of Its Love, with Its continuous Empire, one can say that It is continuous Baptism, Absolution never interrupted, and Communion at every instant—even more, because this Our Will was given to man at the Beginning of his Creation as Perennial Life Living in him.  This was the Substance, the Fruit of Creation:  Our Will that must form Our Life in the creature.  With this Life We gave everything.  There was nothing that he could have been able to have need of, which he would not find in this Will of Ours.  One can say that he would have found at his disposition all that he could have wanted:  Help, Strength, Sanctity, Light.  c Veils, let Himself be seen, and giving a sorrowful sigh, He told me: 

Prayers and Meditations (LB)

 Prayers and Meditations

(1995-1999)

A Poem for Jesus:

Feb., 1998

All that is mine is Yours –

All that is Yours is mine–

Therefore, I give you my mind,

And I take Your mind to think with

I give you my eyes,

And I take Your eyes to see with

I give you my mouth,

And I take Your mouth to speak with

I give you my ears,

And I take Your ears to listen with,

I give you my hands,

And I take Your hands to work with,

I give you my feet,

And I take Your feet to walk with,

I give you my heart,

And I take Your Heart to love with!

Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus:

 Mon. Jan 2, 1995

As Our Holy Mother presented Jesus in the Temple, She present to us Her Heart united to the Heart of Her Son, asking for our hearts in exchange, that She might present them to God the Father.  We must offer our hearts to Them for this spiritual exchange of hearts.

Meditation on the Finding of Jesus in the Temple:

After this exchange of hearts, we find within the temples of our hearts the pure Hearts of Our Holy Mother and Our Lord.  This is where we find Jesus & Mary united with us and where the Triumph of Her Heart will begin.**

**Friday, Feb. 7, 2003, Shrine of the Most Blessed Sacrament:  (added on 3/6/09)

After receiving Holy Communion; I saw within my soul Jesus sitting upon my heart as if on a throne; His back towards me, looking out, with something like a staff in His right hand.  He spoke to me saying, “It is from here I will reign!”  Jesus then turned into a little child, but remained sitting upon my heart with the staff remaining in His Hand.  Jesus then spoke again saying, “I will reign in those who love Me.”

Meditation, mid-Jan., 1995

As I was meditating on a letter Sr. Maureen wrote me, it came to me that the same way the Church is being pulled apart today, Jesus’ limbs were pulled apart as they nailed Him to the Cross.   As this thought came to me, Jesus spoke to me saying, “You will suffer with Me!”

Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus:

Sat., Feb. 4, 1995

As Our Lady presented the Infant Jesus to God the Father in the Temple, She also presents Him to us each day at the Mass (in the Temple), and also presents each of us to God the Father as She presented Jesus to Him.  As Simeon and Anna knew that this Infant was the son of God, we also must see Him in the Eucharist with the same faith as they did.  We must believe in His true Presence.  Jesus has told me that the “abomination will soon be set up in the temple” and that we must continue to walk in faith – “to be His Light” in the darkness surrounding us.  I have complained to Him to open the hearts of all the people that they may return to Him, and He has told me many times that He “will not impose on their will.”  He cannot enter the hearts of so many as they are hardened and filled with pride – that many of them will be lost.  We are asked to continue to pray for them during this time of Mercy that their hearts may open.   This is where the “abomination” begins – in the heart”, but will “soon be set up in the temple”.  As Our Lady presented Jesus, She by tradition, was to be purified according to the Law (though She was already pure!) – the Church must also be purified!

March 6, 1995, Adoration Chapel:

When you were lost, I found you,

When you were hungry, I fed you,

When you were thirsty, I gave you a drink,

Do for Me what I have done for you.

June 12, 1995, Adoration Chapel:

While meditating on the Resurrection, I thought about why the Apostles did not recognize Our Lord When they saw Him.  He told me they did not recognize Him because they were seeing with their 

“human eyes” and not with the “eyes of their souls.”  Then He said that I was like them – I do not believe that He is speaking to me – that I should “listen with the ears of my soul.”

Meditation, sometime the beginning of 1996:

Our Lord calls out to His Father, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”  The Light from the Father diminishes within Him and Heaven seems to no longer hear Him.  He sees before Him the souls of all those who would abandon Him and the extinguished lights of all those who would be lost forever – being deprived of the ones He could not save – His greatest torment.  How many would be lost?  Did He feel that He suffered in vain?  He sees His Churches and chapels empty – no one is there to console His great sorrow.  He sees those who abandon His Church – His Mystical Body – abandoned by so many.  Even His apostles have abandoned Him.   He is alone with only His Mother to comfort Him.  In sorrow, He cries out, “I thirst!” – thirsting for the souls that He is in agony for, thirsting for the souls He knows He is to die for.  He is truly the “spurned one”.  He continues today to pour out His Mercy for those who are lost, that they might repent and be saved.  He feels as much abandoned today as He did when He hung upon the Cross.  He cries out to the Father for us….(unfinished)

Meditation on the Resurrection, Aug. 10, 1996:

After the sacrifice came the Resurrection – after the sacrifice of the Mass, when we receive Jesus in the Eucharist, our hearts become the tomb where He rests and He is resurrected in us.  I was lead to understand that as His Holy Face was imprinted on the shroud, His Divine Features are also imprinted upon our hearts.  In the promises to those devoted to His Holy Face, Our Lord has said, “They will, as the pious Veronica, wipe my Adorable Face outraged by sin, and I will imprint My Divine Features in the souls.”

Adoration Chapel, Oct. 17, 1996, from Our Lord:

When you are filled with joy – I Am

When you are filled with sorrow – I Am

When you are filled with peace – I Am

When you are filled with Love – I Am

I Am is with you

Meditation of the Presentation, Oct. 21, 1996:

During the Mass, I become a Bethlehem.  The cave where Jesus is to be born is inside my heart.  I try to prepare a place fit for Him to be born, but it is cold and dark inside, and yet, He chooses to be born here.

Upon His arrival, my cave becomes all Light and the darkness and cold within disappear.  Mother Mary wraps Him tightly in my heart as She wrapped Him in swaddling clothes.  The Lord is now with Me!  I go to bring Him to others.  It is time to present Him to God the Father; I bring Him within me to the temple (the Mass) to present Him to the Father.  He leaves my heart as He leaves the arms of Our Mother to be placed in the arms of Simeon (the Priest).  Simeon takes Him into his arms and blesses God.  (My eyes have seen your salvation which you prepared in sight of all the peoples.”  My eyes look at Jesus in the Eucharist – our salvation – prepared in sight of all the people at the Mass.  Then Jesus is given back to me as Simeon handed Him back to Mary.  This “sign that will be contradicted” is now with me.  As I carry Him with me, I know that I too become a sign of contradiction.

Words of Love, because He first loved me, Nov., 1996:

My soul proclaims your greatness, O Lord,

You have breathed life into my famished soul.

You alone meet the hunger which only grace can fill,

The thirst which only You can quench.

Your promises are my hope,

Your Words, the joy of my heart.

Through the sword flowed the Living Water

that flowed through this desert reviving it,

bringing life once again to the parched land.

A whisper heard within my heart,

a bright light which questioned me.

I answered, “Yes”, but did not understand.

You called me to Yourself.

With hands outstretched you beckoned me.

You watered your flower in need of nourishment.

The rays poured out from Your Heart,

pierced for love of me.

You lifted up my soul in your powerful arms,

and held me close to You,

Filling my heart with an unknown love,

leaving your imprint upon my soul.

My spirit rejoices in You, my Savior.

My soul is filled with Your Light.

April 3, 1997:

Sometimes my heart is so filled with joy – I think it may burst;

Sometimes my heart is so filled with sorrow – I think I may die;

Sometimes I feel nothing, neither joy nor sorrow  - these are the worst times;

Oh that I would feel something!  I welcome even sorrow or pain instead of emptiness.

Meditation:  “…and She laid him in a manger because there was no room for them at the Inn” Luke 2:7

Mid-1997:

I pray to become empty – for my heart to become an empty space as the cave in which Jesus was born, and not to be full, as the Inn which had no room.  I pray to you my Mother, to place Jesus in my heart as you placed Him in the manger so that His glorious Light will inflame my poor heart, burning away all the impurities and all that which is not of God, filling the darkness of my soul with His Light.  May all be drawn to His Light as the Shepherd’s were drawn to the cave of His birth.  My Jesus, I pray that you will rest here in my heart where I will warm you with the warmth of Your very Love and form within me the empty space in which you will place the Celestial Gift of the Divine Will.   Amen

Sat., July 5, 1997, Adoration:

I was meditating on the Finding of Jesus in the Temple and the suffering of Mother Mary as She searched for three days for Her Jesus, and I thought about myself when I sometimes do not feel His presence.  How miserable I become!~  At one point during the Mass, I again thought about Our Lady and St. Joseph going in search of Jesus, and He said to me, “I did not leave them!”  I received light to understand that Mary and Joseph brought Jesus to the Temple, but He did not go off leaving them – it was they who left Him.  I knew that He was making me understand that it is never He who leaves us, but us who leave Him.  And where is it that we will find Him?  - in the Temple (the Church) and in the Temple of our hearts where He dwells.”

A few days after this, I picked up the Book of Heaven, Vol. 17, pg. 73, and read, “I do not leave you – no, no.   This is an accusation you make against your Jesus.  I never leave anyone!  The creatures withdraw from Me, not I from them.  Rather, I go behind them and next to them.”

April, 1998, Meditation on the Resurrection:

I thought about Jesus’ words to Mary Magdalene, “Do not touch Me for I have not yet ascended to My Father.”  How holy and pure we must be before we touch our dear Lord.  How many are the impure hands that touch Him each day when receiving Him in the Eucharist!  How many the impure hearts into which He descends each day!

Aug., 1998, Meditation on the Presentation:

I saw Anna as representing all the faithful,  “and coming forward at that very time, she gave thanks to God…”  (Luke 2:38) In faith, we come forward to receive Our Lord in the Holy Eucharist, and we give thanks to God for a gift so great!  We go out from the “Temple” to speak of Jesus to all who will listen, “…and spoke about the child to all who were awaiting the redemption of Jerusalem.”

Aug. 14, 1998:

I was thinking about John the Apostle as he rested his head upon the Heart of Our dear Lord:  John, what did you feel?  What did you hear?  Did you hear His Heart speaking to yours?  Were you engulfed in the flames of love bursting from His adorable Heart?  What did you say to Him?  Oh John, how I desire to rest my head upon the heart of my Jesus once again.  But He is as gone for me.  I no longer feel Him near me as I once did.  Have I not done His Will?  He has given me so many graces.  Have I used them as I should have?  Jesus, as you take your Light from me, I see myself as You see me, and I am sick at what I see!  I feel weighed down by sin, covered with filth and mud – yet my soul still clings to You.  I see myself grabbing on to the hem of Your robe and I will never let go.  I will continue to cling to You, my sweet Jesus, with all my strength.

During the Mass this day, I was praying that You would remember me for I feel so abandoned and alone.  I said to You, Jesus my heart, am I being detached from You? , and I heard very softly within my heart, No, no my Lynne.  You are a part of My Heart.   Would I tear out part of My Heart and throw it away?”

True fasting, Aug., 1998: 

 I now understand what “true fasting is:  it is not the fasting on bread and water, although this is where we begin; it is the denying of self – fasting from what we desire for what God desires.  This does not only relate to food, but to everything.  We must discern what God’s desires are and what are our own.  It is only in this way that we may truly be emptied of self so that God may fill us.  Our Lady has taught us, as children, to fast on bread and water to allow us to understand this ultimate truth.

Sometime the end of 1998:

I wait to hear once again the sound of Your Voice whispering within my soul,

I wait to see once again your beautiful face within my soul,

Oh, how I long for you May God!

I feel as if the Holy Spirit has abandoned me,

And yet, I know you are before me as spectator, watching my every move,

listening to my every word.

Oh, when will you return to me My Divine Master?

You are everything to me, and how can I live without You?

It is a void you are making in my soul which you will fill with Yourself –

Praise you My God – my breath, my life, my all!

Dec. 29, 1998:

Before Mass during prayer, I understood that I had nothing to offer God, that everything comes only from Him – I could not even love Him as I should, and a most beautiful prayer came to me something like this, “I love you my God, but I do not love you as you love me, therefore, I take the love with which you love me and make it my own so that I may offer you this same love with which you have loved me.”  Immediately I heard within my heart, “This is what will make us one!”

Beginning of 1999:

Consider this regarding women who want to be Priests:  I thought about the fourth joyful mystery of the Rosary, the Presenting of Jesus – Our Lady offered Her Son to the Father, not with her hands, but through the hands of Simeon the Priest!  Even the Mother of God did not offer Him through her own hands – if God wanted women to be Priests, certainly it would have been His will to be offered through the hands of The Immaculate One, and not through Simeon’s!

An understanding given through prayer, beginning of Dec., 1999:

I do not have any words to explain this, but in my feeble way I will attempt:

Sometimes after receiving Holy Communion (offered in the Divine Will), I seem to feel nothing within me – it is as though I no longer exist.  I felt this even more today and wondered why this would be.  As soon as this thought came to my mind, I was given Light to understand that as Jesus gave everything of Himself, I, in being united to Him, also must give everything of myself until there is nothing left of me – as the Host is broken and consumed until there is nothing left – so must I be. 

Thurs., July 8, 1999:

Before Mass, I was inspired to pray for everyone to “listen with the ears of their souls and see with the eyes of their souls.”  Just after receiving Holy Communion, I understood that the Eucharistic Reign of Christ will be within our souls (we will see Him with the eyes of our souls), that this is NOT an exterior reign; we will become as living Hosts.  I understood so much but it is impossible for me to explain in words.   Immediately after this, I heard clearly within me, “And you will see Me as I Am!”

Prayer, July, 1999:

Oh my Jesus, please remove from me all that keeps me from living in your Holy Divine Will.  If there is anything of which I am unaware of that keeps me outside of Your Will, make it known to me that I may repent of it so as to live firmly in Your Will.  I ask you to make me into that image you had of me when I was first in Your Thoughts, and do not allow me to distort that image.  May I grow ever more in Your Light as to form a Heaven for you on earth and to be united with you forever for all Eternity.  Amen

A meditation on the prophecy of Simeon:

Heavenly Mother, I enter into Your sorrow at the prophecy of Simeon when you presented with St. Joseph the child Jesus in the Temple.  The joy you felt upon presenting Jesus to the Father was taken away by the words spoken by Simeon, “…and your heart will be pierced also…(Luke 2:34)   Oh, my sorrowful Mother, in these words was the knowledge given to you how many would reject your Motherly embrace and in rejecting you, would also be rejecting your Jesus.  How many souls were contained in your Hearts that would reject the many Graces that you wanted to offer them.  My sweet Mother, to make reparation to you for all the rejection you suffered upon seeing those souls that would not only reject your Jesus, but would also reject you, I bring you the love of all the faithful throughout the ages.  I bring you the love of Jesus, your Son; of the Holy Spirit, your spouse; and Our Heavenly Father, to comfort and console you in this great sorrow.  I will remain always with you upon your lap begging together with you that the Kingdom come on earth, as it is in Heaven.

A poem I wrote many years ago at Christmas time just after having come into the Church:

Our Loving Jesus, meek and mild,

Says “Bring to Me your little child.

Sit him down before me please,

And I will grant him all his needs.”

But we are too busy, we haven’t the time.

“My Gifts are great and beyond compare,

Show Me that you truly care.

I only ask a few moments of your time,

I will give you all I have, because you are mine.”

But we are too busy, we haven’t the time.

“I Am your Father, your Brother, your Friend,

I will never abandon you – I will be with you until the end.

You are my children, this you should know.

I will wait ‘til you come, for I love you so!”

But we are too busy, we haven’t the time.

Sometime Feb, 1996:

After a meditation class (we were meditating on being with Jesus at the Jordan), Sr. Maureen asked me why I didn’t put Jesus’ sandals on my feet when we were meditating.  After I spoke with her, I knew that I had to do this, and immediately I felt fear within me – not even knowing why.  I prayed to Our Lady to take away all my fears and to offer them to Jesus, asking for her help in what I was about to do.

“Jesus is sitting before me.  I kneel down at His feet taking one foot into my hands.  I slip off His sandal and kiss the wound on His foot.  I now take the other foot into my hands and do the same.  I stand up and slip both sandals onto my own feet saying as I do so, “Yes, I will lord, because I love you.”  I follow Jesus who now stands up and walks in front of me, and Mother Mary is on my left walking besides me.  We walk only a few steps and Jesus turns around facing me.  He doesn’t say a word, but I am enlightened and know that the Holy Spirit who will fill me completely, once I am empty, will do everything – I need do nothing!  What is there to fear?  I need only get out of His way!”  I understood after this that during my meditation class I was very comfortable being a little girl in the arms of Our Lord, but I feared having to be like Him – walking in His sandals!

I do not belong of the earth,

I belong to Heaven.

In order for me to get to Heaven,

I must spend my time on earth,

Acting as though I belong to Heaven!

Meditation on the Presentation of Jesus in the Temple:

I go together with Mary and Joseph and the Infant Jesus to the Temple.  My eyes cannot go away from Him who is my life and my all.  Mary presents Him to the Priest, Simeon.  I look at Him in Simeon’s arms and oh, how I wish He were in my arms, but lo – I am to sinful and wretched to dare touch Him!  I therefore, stare in awe at His beautiful and adorable face and contemplate with what Love He loves us all.  Oh my sweet Mother, how sorrowful is your heart to hear Simeon say, “and your heart too will be pierced!”  At that moment you saw how many sins caused your heart and the Divine Heart of Jesus to be pierced.  Forgive me – forgive us all!

Lynne Bauer